Syiqin Zuhapri

Between two path.

I remember how it feels to grow up with ambitious, strong, determine heart to chase all the things that this life could offer- world attachments. To be exact, we grow up with a mindset to score in examinations, to be a good-looking person, being slim and fit just to look pretty and have a good self-confident. We put too much pressure and burden that our heart needs to carry from the moment we open our eyes till the moment we close it. All the things that we focus are- how to be successful? How to maintain in shape? How to be healthy? How to be pretty? How can we achieve something in order to have a bright future? How can we have million saving in our account before we are 30? What kind of partner matches us? And the saddest part is, the heart longing for worldly attachment only. We tend to focus 'future' but we didn't even think about "actual future".

There is nothing wrong to achieve good achievements in examination, to be ambitious, to feel good about ourself, to be this and that- kind of person. But the little things that we rarely realize, the root problem of this never ending over thinking is, we did not have Allah swt in our heart, we did not even think about our prophet Muhammad SAW, we missed selawat and feels okay with it. The days passed by and we still feel okay, nothing is wrong neither right. Then, it leads to empty feeling. We feel stuck and feels there's something wrong and it feels that our heart longing for something. We search for the torch to give light to our soul, we desire for worldly things for the sake of happiness and to feel a content heart, but, but forget our main "torch light" that was provided for us hundred years before we born, al-quran.

You know what is the saddest part of this world? When we think that someone who pray daily, read the holy Quran, fasting in ramadhan, do charity (sadaqah), is a group of pious people but we never put an effort to be that kind of person because we tend to forget our actual future.

That's why a lot of people give up with their changes, their hijrah. Because it's a lonely journey. It's between you and God. Change is easy, istiqamah is the hardest part. Memorizing the Quran is easy, Murajaah is a life-time job.

The truth is, we lost a lot of people if we search the light along the new path. Different people being tested with different trials. I believe every human being in this world longing for the light, but it takes time for them to realize it.

To be continue.